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FIRST DAY NERVES

HELLOPEOPLE,

So I had my first day at my NEW JOB. Eeeeeeek.

I’m no longer stuck in an office with no windows. I actually feel like my basic needs are met during the day. I’m allowed to communicate with other without feeling like I’m breaking rules, it’s amazing.

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However the anxiety and nerves I had the night before were unbearable. I haven’t been anxious for a very long time, so it really snuck up on me.

The fact i had been belittled and embarrassed so much at my old job, I’d lost all confidence. I was terrified of it happening again.

I slept for about 4 hours, dragged myself in, doubling checking I had everything I needed 7 billion times on the bus in.

Oh .. that another thing. I had to get the bus which set my anxiety off before it was even 8am. Anyone else worry they won’t be able to get off the bus at the right stop?

Anyways, I’m two days in and I couldn’t be happier. I’m completely relieved and thrilled at the idea of going back again tomorrow.

I couldn’t of got through the last few weeks if it hadn’t been for my family, friend, boyfriend and this blog. So thank you.

You’ll hear more from me!

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(Photo from homeworld.com)

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2 WEEKS

So it’s been just over two weeks since made redundant. After my whole life was taken away from me in the space of 10 minutes, I felt completely hopeful. Now I’m stuck trying to search for jobs.

Anyone else ever had to find a job? But had NO clue what they are interested in anymore..

I haven’t got the energy or the confidence to find a role that suits me and that really bothers me. I want to find something that I fit into well, and can sense that the team will need me.

I’m now battling in my head whether I should study further, settle for a job that I know I can do better in or bite the bullet and travel.

SO MANY DECISIONS.

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THE STUFF THEY DON’T TELL YOU ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS

Relationships in films are based around knights in shining armours and kissing frogs to get princes. Now in my 20’s I’ve discovered it’s not at all. To begin with you make sure you are washed and ready to spend time with this special person.. after around 6/7 months the following begin to happen:

  • your other half taking a dump whilst you are showering. (Gross, but that’s the level of comfortable you get)
  • Sharing toothbrushes. (Also gross, but if you still live at home owning 4 toothbrushes between you is stupid.)
  • Arguing over what to watch on TV, But fallen asleep together before getting half way through. (Then moaning about missing it the next morning)
  • Does anyone else live in their other halves clothes and wonder if they ever find you attract because you’re such a slop around them?
  • NEVER SHAVING. And they still cuddle you.

These are all moments I turn and realise I’ve found the one person that accepts me for who I am, and I’m completely happy to be gross with.

Relationships come in all shapes and sizes and it’s about spending time with someone who is your best friend and you are comfortable with.

Ladies and gentlemen, don’t fall head over heels for the first frog. ( even if they may act like a prince) It hurts like hell.

Love yourself, and multiple. 💜💚

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LETS TALK MENTAL HEALTH

Mental health affects way more people than everyone thinks. But for some reasons no one is allowed to talk about or they even feel embarrassed to share how they really feel.

I myself have struggled with feeling low and I get panicky when things don’t go the way I expect them too.

I’m ready to start talking about it.

It’s hard to wake up some days and know that I’m physically well enough to get on with my day but there is something in my head stopping me. Some days getting dressed is even an issue.

I must say I have improved since this time last year but that’s with the help from my friends/boyfriend and family. I’ve learnt to say “I don’t feel right” when my head can’t bear the thought of dealing with anything.

I think accepting their is a problem is the first step to understanding the problem. My mini motto.

Keep looking up. Have a lovely day.

X

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DEALING WITH BAD SKIN

HELLOPEOPLE,

So everyone struggles with their skin at some point, and I was one of them. I have really sensitive skin, which flareed up and will then go really (REALLY) dry. I used to break out in random places then get massive scabs, which ended up scarring. I’ll insert a photo below.

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I know this isn’t the best photo, but you can see some left over scarring. My skin used to make me so uncomfortable, and I would hide it with tones of make up until i discovered a few different products and techniques which i will discuss with you!

    1. WASH IT RIGHT. So i started by making sure that i washed my face correctly in the morning, it makes such a difference (especially when your skin is oily) to clean sensitive skin with a gentle wash such as Simple clear skin balancing exfoliating wash, i use this every morning and sometimes at night, if I’m wearing any make-up.

Simple Clear Skin Oil Balancing Exfoliating Wash 150 ml

2. HAVE MAKE UP FREE DAYS. If you have nothing planned for the day, spend the day looking after your skin. Start by apply a deep pore mask, to clear out any dirt or grease that could cause inflammation. Then I would normally apply a moisturiser that has all the important vitamins your skin needs. Sometimes these moisturisers can make your skin a little oily, but if I’m having a day at home these can be acceptable. I do use two different moisturisers, because one is waaaaaaay more expensive than the other one. So it just depends on how broke i am.

Dr Organic Tea Tree Deep Pore Vegan 5 in 1 Charcoal Mask 100ml

Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturizing Lotion + New formula 125ml Very Dry to Dry Combo Skin
SIMPLE HYD LIGHT MOIST

3. DRINK LOTS OF WATER. I personally didn’t notice until recently how much water really effects your skin. Drinking more water instantly cleared up my skin and removed any redness I was getting.

4. LOOK AT SELL BY DATE. Don’t put products on your skin, that you’ve had a long time or have a sell by or use by date on them. You wouldn’t eat an out of date yogurt so you wouldn’t want to put something that’s gone off on your face. Right?

Those are my small tips to help your skin out on the bad days. Just to note, I’m no expert but i wanted to share what helps me. Here is an after picture of me looking a lot happier with my clear skin, just to end on a nice note.

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Have a lovely day.

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STAYING POSITIVE

Feeling unmotivated and negative is tiring. Trying to remain in a positive mindset is even harder…I am someone who tries to escape their problems or even blame something/someone for the feelings I have.

One of my main ways of escaping is drinking, I’d drink to forget and ignore. I sometimes still do. (Picture below to prove it)

Classy I know..

Learning to love myself, is my main goal. Which seems silly, but learning to enjoy every part of my own personality and quirks can be rewarding. I have started to enjoy spending time by yourself, and want to do things for yourself.

Everyone has low points in their life, some more than others. I wanted to be able to express my lows and my highs and hopefully bring some positivity to others.

Hope you enjoyed the read!

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(My boyfriend recently gave me this little book of positivity, go buy it yourselves links below and see what you think!)

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REDUNDANCY. brill.

Redundancy is a pile of S***. Anyone out there who has gone through it (or is going through this currently) knows how it feels.

You feel completly inadequate and useless because a company (whether you liked working their or not) got rid of you. I wanted to try and write some of my tips which i’ve used within the past few days as I was made redundant exactly 2 days ago. If anyone also has any useful tips to get myself back out into the world of work, please comment.

  1. DONT STAY IN BED. I wanted to be alone and live in a little cave of duvets and pillows for a week. This doesn’t work. It just causes more horrible thoughts and ideas of yourself which aren’t true. Try and get up, get washed and get into the fresh air.
  2. FIGHT FOR A REDUNDANCY PAY OUT. You are entitled to a redunancy pay out if you have worked at a company for a certain amount of time, there are obviously different policies and rules but everyone deserves something to help them pay their bills (untill you manage to scrape yourself off the floor and find a new job). Also, you can go treat YO’self.
  3. BE HONEST ABOUT YOUR NEXT MOVE. I was in denial about continuing in the same job sector. However, I was made redundant because I “didn’t suit the role”. Think about what you enjoy best and look for something new!
  4. DONT PANIC. I am the first person to panic about ANYTHING. Sitting back and realising its not the end of the world, really gives you a new outlook on working life.
  5. USE TIME OFF TO YOUR ADVANTAGE. Go do stuff for you. Go find something that makes you happy that you couldn’t do before because you had to “have an early night because of work” or didn’t want to do anything because “you’re too tired from work”. You may even find something you love, which could lead to a completely new career.

These are my first few tips, this only happened a few days ago for me and it is very raw. I’m hoping i will have even more positive tips and tricks to help get others in the same situation as me, back out into the big wild world.

Thank you for reading my HELLOEPOPLE blog, if you enjoyed this post please subsribe and like!

x

 

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