NEW START

2 WEEKS

So it’s been just over two weeks since made redundant. After my whole life was taken away from me in the space of 10 minutes, I felt completely hopeful. Now I’m stuck trying to search for jobs.

Anyone else ever had to find a job? But had NO clue what they are interested in anymore..

I haven’t got the energy or the confidence to find a role that suits me and that really bothers me. I want to find something that I fit into well, and can sense that the team will need me.

I’m now battling in my head whether I should study further, settle for a job that I know I can do better in or bite the bullet and travel.

SO MANY DECISIONS.

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THE STUFF THEY DON’T TELL YOU ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS

Relationships in films are based around knights in shining armours and kissing frogs to get princes. Now in my 20’s I’ve discovered it’s not at all. To begin with you make sure you are washed and ready to spend time with this special person.. after around 6/7 months the following begin to happen:

  • your other half taking a dump whilst you are showering. (Gross, but that’s the level of comfortable you get)
  • Sharing toothbrushes. (Also gross, but if you still live at home owning 4 toothbrushes between you is stupid.)
  • Arguing over what to watch on TV, But fallen asleep together before getting half way through. (Then moaning about missing it the next morning)
  • Does anyone else live in their other halves clothes and wonder if they ever find you attract because you’re such a slop around them?
  • NEVER SHAVING. And they still cuddle you.

These are all moments I turn and realise I’ve found the one person that accepts me for who I am, and I’m completely happy to be gross with.

Relationships come in all shapes and sizes and it’s about spending time with someone who is your best friend and you are comfortable with.

Ladies and gentlemen, don’t fall head over heels for the first frog. ( even if they may act like a prince) It hurts like hell.

Love yourself, and multiple. 💜💚

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LETS TALK MENTAL HEALTH

Mental health affects way more people than everyone thinks. But for some reasons no one is allowed to talk about or they even feel embarrassed to share how they really feel.

I myself have struggled with feeling low and I get panicky when things don’t go the way I expect them too.

I’m ready to start talking about it.

It’s hard to wake up some days and know that I’m physically well enough to get on with my day but there is something in my head stopping me. Some days getting dressed is even an issue.

I must say I have improved since this time last year but that’s with the help from my friends/boyfriend and family. I’ve learnt to say “I don’t feel right” when my head can’t bear the thought of dealing with anything.

I think accepting their is a problem is the first step to understanding the problem. My mini motto.

Keep looking up. Have a lovely day.

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WRITING A CV

So I am certainly no expert when it comes to CV’s but whilst I’ve been re writing mine I thought I’d share what I have been adding too mine to make it more appealing!

MAKE IT LOOK NICE. Making a CV actually look professional is what I started with. Looking at the boarder and different fonts to make my CV look well thought out.

TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU’VE DONE NOT WHAT YOU COULD DO. Make your recent achievements and experiences clear, don’t just state what you could possibly do. Make clear what you have done and that you can do it again. E.g met a certain sales goal.

DON’T SOUND COCKY. So I have been making sure that I don’t sound like I know everything because I was to be able to grow and learn within a company.

USE A SECOND PAIR OF EYES. Get someone else to read it. I always ask my dad to check grammar and spelling because I write how I speak, and that doesn’t always make sense!

USE BIG WORDS. Finally, enhance your sentences by using bigger and more sophisticated words.

I hope this helps other that are looking to write a CV.

Happy job hunting!

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MY UNI EXPERIENCE GOOD/BAD

HELLO PEOPLE.

Today I thought I’d discuss my university experience. So many people go to university now, and it is possible for anyone. Except being in debt FOREVER. Anyways, I didn’t want to put anyone off going to university but to give those heading off to university in September a mini insight.

SO i worked my butt off at college to get into nursing. It was my dream to be a neonatal nurse, I studied extra courses so I’d get accepted SOMEWHERE. Everyone trying to get into Nursing understands how hard it is to get into the university of your choice.

All the universities closer to home, either gave me interviews and said no or said no straight away (confidence boost, yay). However, London South Bank University accepted me! I was over the moon!

After the initial excitement was over, I realised I’d be leaving so much behind. My friends, Family and my boyfriend (at the time). All though  I was willing to do whatever it took to be a nurse.

ARRIVAL 

I turned up on my first day at university to an absolute s**t hole. My student halls were made up of around 8 blocks of orange brick, which looked so outdated it was disgusting. Inside was so much worse. To start the keys turn the wrong way to a normal key.. brilliant start. Once you entered the heavy fire doors, you’d head up these BRIGHT green stairs which lead to the letter box sized rooms. I will insert a photo below of the room (this was actually when i left so it looked kind of clean ).

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So as you can see the paint is coming off the walls, the mattress is worn and just gross. I had to get new curtains as mine were ripped and full of dust. So, my mum was pretty upset to leave me there lets put it that way. ALSO, this room cost £120 a WEEK to rent. HOW RIDICULOUS.

FIRST FEW WEEKS 

Moving onto fresher’s week. The week of making fake friends and getting so drunk you don’t remember your own name. Its all rubbish, and a way to waste all your money.

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My first few weeks consisted of being drunk, going through a break up, falling out with my flat mates (I lived with 5 other girls) and missing my family stupid amounts.

My eating habits suffered massively. I’m not a brilliant eater anyway, but the state of the kitchen made it worse. The flat parties would leave alcohol stains and mysterious marks all over, which made it impossible for me to feel comfortable to eat ANYTHING. So i lived off the chip shop van and biscuits. (Photo below of me eating biscuits hungover, in onesie) A result of this i lost a stupid amount of weight, and for someone who was quite athletic and slim. It made a difference.

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THE WARDS

So we finally got our uniform which i will show you below also, which barley fit me because i was so titchy by then. It was white which eventually turned yellowish from washing. But it was bearable.

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Once i got on to the wards for my placements (i was at great Ormond’s street) I was completely overwhelmed by the volume of heartache and sadness amongst the wards. I had the idea in my head that the nurses would treat the patients but also make sure they left with a smile on their faces. I was left with nurses who didn’t want to be their and were massively overworked.

I’d have panic attacks every time someone spoke to me with a slightly mean tone, and would cry whenever i left the wards. I slowly started to believe I wasn’t made for the job I once wished to do SO badly.

LEAVING

So after many tearful conversations with my parents at 3am i decided to drop out. The process wasn’t easy and you have to go through many interviews and conversations to be let out of the course and the accommodation.

Even writing this now it does sound all negative BUT there were many positives, I discovered a lot about myself and who i am. I met so many interesting people and have made some really close friends for life.

So this is a little insight into life as a student nurse, hopefully more people will recognise the funding needed for the NHS to provide more support and help through the training, to encourage others into the role.

There are SO many other areas i will be talking about regarding my experience at university, but I’ll leave this blog here.

Have a lovely day.

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DEALING WITH BAD SKIN

HELLOPEOPLE,

So everyone struggles with their skin at some point, and I was one of them. I have really sensitive skin, which flareed up and will then go really (REALLY) dry. I used to break out in random places then get massive scabs, which ended up scarring. I’ll insert a photo below.

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I know this isn’t the best photo, but you can see some left over scarring. My skin used to make me so uncomfortable, and I would hide it with tones of make up until i discovered a few different products and techniques which i will discuss with you!

    1. WASH IT RIGHT. So i started by making sure that i washed my face correctly in the morning, it makes such a difference (especially when your skin is oily) to clean sensitive skin with a gentle wash such as Simple clear skin balancing exfoliating wash, i use this every morning and sometimes at night, if I’m wearing any make-up.

Simple Clear Skin Oil Balancing Exfoliating Wash 150 ml

2. HAVE MAKE UP FREE DAYS. If you have nothing planned for the day, spend the day looking after your skin. Start by apply a deep pore mask, to clear out any dirt or grease that could cause inflammation. Then I would normally apply a moisturiser that has all the important vitamins your skin needs. Sometimes these moisturisers can make your skin a little oily, but if I’m having a day at home these can be acceptable. I do use two different moisturisers, because one is waaaaaaay more expensive than the other one. So it just depends on how broke i am.

Dr Organic Tea Tree Deep Pore Vegan 5 in 1 Charcoal Mask 100ml

Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturizing Lotion + New formula 125ml Very Dry to Dry Combo Skin
SIMPLE HYD LIGHT MOIST

3. DRINK LOTS OF WATER. I personally didn’t notice until recently how much water really effects your skin. Drinking more water instantly cleared up my skin and removed any redness I was getting.

4. LOOK AT SELL BY DATE. Don’t put products on your skin, that you’ve had a long time or have a sell by or use by date on them. You wouldn’t eat an out of date yogurt so you wouldn’t want to put something that’s gone off on your face. Right?

Those are my small tips to help your skin out on the bad days. Just to note, I’m no expert but i wanted to share what helps me. Here is an after picture of me looking a lot happier with my clear skin, just to end on a nice note.

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Have a lovely day.

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DAY ONE

So, I suck at taking my own advice. I woke up and have done the complete opposite to what I posted about before. Monday morning has been rubbish knowing I have no place to go to. I don’t have a job waiting for me, I don’t have a desk or anything else..

I told myself I’d work on myself, however I’ve found myself drawn to my bed looking through job adverts.

Goal for the day: Do something productive e.g clean my car or re-write my cv. Any tips people?

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